Hey everyone! I’m sorry I’ve been absent for so many weeks now. There has been so much going on in my life that has left me struggling to make it through the day.
The bullshit going on in my life I don’t have the courage to share with you. It is something out of my control but directly effects me.
I can’t seem to catch a break. It’s stupid situation after annoying accident and painful experience after another.
I’ve been leaning solely on my therapist because I don’t feel comfortable talking with anyone else about what’s going on. So I let my anxious mind run free to worry. I worry about the present and a lot about the future too.
The uncertainty of the future is terrifying to me. The worries bounce around in my brain nonstop.
Because of my depression and anxiety, I have wanted to self harm. I want all of this stress, anxiety and pain to end but at this point I see no end.
No matter what happens there is an inevitable ending where I am left alone in a pit of despair.