Why am I enjoying this?

My introverted self who prefers to self-isolate in general is enjoying quarantine. It scares me a bit though. Shouldn’t I be miserable or something?

Yesterday I asked my boss about whether everyone would be heading back to the office next week since many of us were working from home for the last two weeks. She said staff can go back on Monday and she asked if I wanted to return.

My heart sank. My brain screamed, “I’m not ready to go back!!”

Thankfully with this boss I feel comfortable being honest with her. I told her for the time being I would like to keep working from home since there isn’t anything at the office I need. Which is true, everything I need to work is on my work computer.

She said it was fine which made me glad!

But what was alarming to me was my immediate fear that I would have to return to the office. It’s not that I dislike my coworkers or my job, it’s the social anxiety that continues to plague me. I thought I was doing pretty well socially at work before I began working from home. Now I’m back to square one.

I have really been enjoying the time I am able to take for self care each morning. I get up usually feeling well rested then choose to either read, write, learn or exercise. Beginning the day in a positive way has been great! It’s usually the best part of my day.

I don’t get up dreading the day because I know that I have something I enjoy waiting for me when I get out of bed.

Should I not be so content about being locked up at home? Is this normal? I really don’t know but making the best of any situation always seem like a good option.

4 Comments

  1. I think you answered your own question. Who wouldn’t enjoy getting up each day feeling well rested and having time to themselves? I absolutely feel similar. I am enjoying feeling less bombarded by life. If I don’t want to see or hear about stuff, I don’t know I like having home and my world getting very small. I noticed I haven’t even been thinking about tomorrow much and I like it. Great post, thank you. Stay well!

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    1. Thank you for your comment! I’m happy to know that you’re enjoying this time as well and are taking a break from the craziness of regular life. Everything feels small but I also feel this global sense of community. That people all over the world are stuck at home too. Thank you, you too!

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