You wouldn’t think that food would be such a complex thing but it really is. It should be simple but it’s far from it.
Today I felt relatively in control. I didn’t have any major binge sessions but I still overate. I need to get my mind out of the habit of eating a lot. Since my emotional/stress eating was going on for weeks, now I’m in this habit to eat like crazy even if I’m doing fine.
I did really well at work listening to my body for most of the day. The afternoon is where I slipped up but it’s ok. It’s better than doing bad all day!
Tomorrow is a new day where I can try to be better at ignoring my desires to eat more than I need.
What triggered my eating today was being bored. I can get so bored at work if I don’t have a pressing deadline or a busy day. Even if I give myself pretend deadlines, they don’t help because I made them up so I can break them and it doesn’t matter. I try to keep my mind busy but it doesn’t always happen.
I’ve been in a fog at work. It feels like my eyes glaze over and I could fall asleep right at my desk. I don’t know if I need motivation or more coffee but something has got to change because I can hardly get through a work day.
How do you all get through a boring day at work?
Since May I have been dealing with lower back pain. At the beginning it was severe and prevented me from functioning normally.
A couple weeks ago I finished up my sessions with my chiropractor (my insurance has run out and I don’t have any more visits left) I was feeling awesome. Literally the next day I was in pain. The pain continues to get worse and it is incredibly frustrating.
I don’t want to go back to the chiropractor, with weekly visits the money really adds up. Sadly it is a luxury to try and receive the medical care that I need.
It makes me so frustrated that I have to live with this chronic pain. I can’t live my life to the fullest because of my back pain. I can’t exercise to the level I desire. Cleaning my bath tub makes the pain so uncomfortable that I end up neglecting it for ages because I don’t want to be in anymore pain. Even going to work and sitting in meetings is painful.
My depression tells me that this pain will be forever. That I will always have to deal with this struggle and not be able to function at full capacity ever again. I won’t ever get to live a pain free life because my body decided to revolt against me.
I’m starting to believe my depression. It’s been months and I have been going up and down with my pain. I want it to stop, I want to move on from this and be happy.
But maybe that’s all just a fantasy.
As I’ve written about in previous posts, I’ve been working through a difficult bout of emotional/stress binge eating.
For the first time in weeks, today I felt in control. It was odd but also great! My mind partially wanted to dive into my bingey habits but I was able to resist them and focus on other tasks at work.
I ate a large soft pretzel as a mid-morning snack which held me over for hours. It seems that if I have something hearty and sustaining the urge to binge isn’t nearly as strong.My body and mind recognize that I’m full and I don’t need anything more.
I feel proud of myself for being in control today! I got a little snackish (a term meaning you want to eat a lot of snacks) once I got home from work. I had some control over myself so I didn’t go crazy.
Keeping up the control is going to be challenging but I hope that I can do it!
Leave me a comment about the best part of your week! I would love to hear how you all are doing 🙂
P.S. — The photo is Animal in “The Muppets Movie” from a few years ago when he’s in anger management and says, “In control.” Here’s a video clip for reference.
As I’ve mentioned in my last few posts, I’ve been struggling with stress, anxiety and emotional eating. I sense that it is all about to peak if I don’t sort myself out.
At work I cannot focus on anything but wanting to leave and eating. I am struggling to keep my mind occupied with my work because the thoughts of stress and food become overbearing.
I have been feeling a tightness in my chest for most of the week and find it difficult to relax. No matter how many deep breaths I take, the tightness always returns.
As for the stress eating, it’s taking such a tole on every aspect of my being. Mentally I am beating myself up about it because I know better than to act this way. My skin looks awful from all the crap I’ve been eating. I am so bloated and feel so fat that I don’t even want to take off my clothes to shower.
I feel awful all around.
But I don’t know how to reset. I don’t know how to get myself back to feeling calm (ish) and eating normally again.
It’s a cycle.
The anxiety and stress constrict me then I eat to make myself feel better. Then I feel guilty about all that I ate so I feel stressed about it and it starts all over again.
Does anyone have tips to manage stress/emotional/binge eating? I could really use some solid advice.
My brother and I have always been close since the day he was born. His birthday on March 29, 1995 is my first memory. Him and I growing up were always each other’s playmate and went through a lot together.
I don’t think I would have survived childhood without my brother.
Lately I’ve felt a rift between us. A rift that has never been there before in all our years as siblings so I’m not sure how to handle it.
Of course we have argued about everything, had physical brawls where usually he got hurt since I’m older (poor kid) and had general disagreements. But he’s never been so distant from me before.
Every Sunday we have lunch with our dad; this has been tradition since my parents got divorced in ’98.
Last week our dad was asking me questions about the house I’m buying, like any normal parent, but the entire time I felt very strong, negative energy radiating from my brother. The moment that conversation was over, the bad vibes vanished.
I know my brother doesn’t agree with my choice to buy a house with someone I’m not married to but in my eyes that’s no reason to create distance between us. We also haven’t spoke as often lately so I’m not sure how to interpret that either.
We have always been close so I don’t know why he hasn’t confronted me about what is going on. I don’t know if he thinks he’s too good for his sinful sister or what but I don’t like the rift that keeps growing.
I hope him and I can work this out. The last thing I want is for us to have our 24 year-long relationship to fall apart over disapproval.
You said it, Elvis!
I seem to always have some annoying health issue going on. At the beginning of the year I was having serious issues with my asthma then I hurt my lower back which caused me severe pain. Now I’m having tremors in my hands.
As many of you who’ve been reading my blog for a while know I love makeup. I love doing my makeup, talking about it, looking at it, all that stuff. I noticed the tremors when I was putting on my mascara and eyeliner a week or two ago.
I thought, “That’s weird. I’ve never been shaky like this before.”
Since then it seems to only be getting worse. It’s worse in the morning then it usually mellows out for the most part by the end of the day. I’m really feeling it this morning so my anxious mind is taking this and running with it.
It’s calming down a little after eating breakfast at the office.
I get so anxious about health related shit. Right now I worry that this is a sign of early on-set Parkinson’s, ALS or MS. I really hope it’s not and it’s something else. The thought of that makes me want to throw up.
I did a little reading and you can have shaky hands from a B12 deficiency, a thyroid issue (which runs in my family) or reacting badly to caffeine.
I’ve rarely had a issue with caffeine, I know my limits and what causes jitters. I can’t drink the very popular cold brew drinks, they have me wired and shaking.
As for B12 I am a vegetarian so getting regular doses of B12 doesn’t always happen. I have started taking supplements for it but it does not seem to be making a difference.
My anxiety is on high. I have an appointment with my doctor but it’s not until next week. I don’t think I can worry I have Parkinson’s for 5 more days.
Cross your fingers for me that I can get in today or tomorrow!
For most of my life I’ve struggled with my weight. For years I took comfort in food which naturally resulted in weight gain.
I’ve hit this point in my life again.
For years if I was struggling with depression or anxiety I couldn’t eat. My stomach would be in knots or I wouldn’t be hungry. Now it’s the total opposite, like I’ve gone back to old habits.
I’m trying to lose weight for my brother’s wedding but my issue with food is very much getting in the way of that. I also am still recovering from a lower back issue so I can only exercise at a very low intensity with breaks between workouts.
Imagine if your 90 year-old grammy was exercising. It’s like that. (I love my 90 year-old grammy just for the record!)
I’m going through a period of depression and anxiety so I know why I’m comfort eating, but I don’t know why my body has switched from under eating to overeating.
What about you? Do you have a challenging relationship with food?